Nov 9, 2022Member-onlyLossI have hollowed out the hull This once sacred space — where Every breath was guaranteed. The truth is, I’m shipwrecked Lost in a desert sea so bone dry I’ve lost the rhythm of movement altogether There is some solice in the story of the stars Hanging in the Heavens…Poetry1 min readPoetry1 min readLossPhoto by Keith Hardy on UnsplashI have hollowed out the hullThis once sacred space — whereEvery breath was guaranteed.The truth is, I’m shipwreckedLost in a desert sea so bone dryI’ve lost the rhythm of movement altogetherThere is some solice in the story of the starsHanging in the Heavens…----1
Oct 31, 2022Member-onlyUntangling power and submissionIt seems that I usually find the trail of breadcrumbs leading to my destination after I’ve already arrived. Oddly, something about that is comforting. Maybe because mostly, it seems we are bumbling through this life, and that feels terrifying to me. I like to think that purpose exists even when…Exvangelical5 min readExvangelical5 min read
Oct 12, 2022Member-onlyWhat to do with painI took my daughter to the ER today. The ambulance came and I rode with her to the hospital. I watched as they moved her in a chair towards the stretcher, her head forward, hanging loosely. Her body limp and heavy. I had this thought. This is traumatic. And that…Loss3 min readLoss3 min read
Published in Age of Awareness·Sep 17, 2022Member-onlyThe amazing and terrifying adaptability of manLife is relentless. This moment — lived and stretched into the next — is always anticlimactic. Even the horrors of life seem surreal, suspended, then washed away with the moments that follow. We just, all of us, keep moving. No matter what. …Emotional Intelligence4 min readEmotional Intelligence4 min read
Published in Hello, Love·Sep 6, 2022Member-onlyIt’s Not Just a Breakup; I Lost My Best FriendI don’t know how to trust my feelings anymore. — I have been trying to get over a breakup now for 5 months. About a month ago, I was talking to a girlfriend about it and feeling stupid for still being so sad. I honestly expected her to give me “getting over it” advice, but she didn’t. Instead, she named…Relationships6 min readRelationships6 min read
Published in Age of Awareness·Aug 1, 2022Member-onlyMy experience at a dark retreat — a guide for grief and healingA couple of weeks ago I visited a dark retreat. There is only one place in the United States that offers this particular brand of self-healing and it is right outside of Medford, Oregon. To be honest, I didn’t know what I was getting myself into. I read about sensory…Grief6 min readGrief6 min read
Jul 26, 2022Member-onlyWhen Grief Comes: a poemWhen grief comes and reachesPoetry1 min readPoetry1 min readPhoto by K. Mitch Hodge on UnsplashWhen Grief Comes: a poem----1
Published in Age of Awareness·Jul 13, 2022Member-onlyThoughts on protest and how to reach “those people.”Last weekend Trump came to Anchorage for a rally. A friend asked me to go with her to protest the event, and I went. Suffice it to say, I am not a fan of the man in any way. But even still, I struggled with why I was protesting. What…Politica6 min readPolitica6 min read
Jul 8, 2022Member-onlyThen and nowI was raised to fill the space of my mothers need — not beyond But I breathe the expanse of sky and the starry night is my voice. ____________ I was raised to be straight as a pin and to feel shame in the growing heat of want But I…Poetry2 min readPoetry2 min read
Jul 6, 2022Member-onlyCan you still be in charge if you don’t enforce your authority?This is a tricky question but a necessary one. Most of the systems we operate under are based on the premise that there is someone in charge — and that the someone in charge must be obeyed, treated with respect, and protected in their authority. I have been working to…Police Reform6 min readPolice Reform6 min read