It seems that I usually find the trail of breadcrumbs leading to my destination after I’ve already arrived. Oddly, something about that is comforting. Maybe because mostly, it seems we are bumbling through this life, and that feels terrifying to me. I like to think that purpose exists even when…

I took my daughter to the ER today. The ambulance came and I rode with her to the hospital. I watched as they moved her in a chair towards the stretcher, her head forward, hanging loosely. Her body limp and heavy. I had this thought. This is traumatic. And that…

Life is relentless. This moment — lived and stretched into the next — is always anticlimactic. Even the horrors of life seem surreal, suspended, then washed away with the moments that follow. We just, all of us, keep moving. No matter what. …

I don’t know how to trust my feelings anymore. — I have been trying to get over a breakup now for 5 months. About a month ago, I was talking to a girlfriend about it and feeling stupid for still being so sad. I honestly expected her to give me “getting over it” advice, but she didn’t. Instead, she named…

A couple of weeks ago I visited a dark retreat. There is only one place in the United States that offers this particular brand of self-healing and it is right outside of Medford, Oregon. To be honest, I didn’t know what I was getting myself into. I read about sensory…

Last weekend Trump came to Anchorage for a rally. A friend asked me to go with her to protest the event, and I went. Suffice it to say, I am not a fan of the man in any way. But even still, I struggled with why I was protesting. What…

I was raised to fill the space of my mothers need — not beyond But I breathe the expanse of sky and the starry night is my voice. ____________ I was raised to be straight as a pin and to feel shame in the growing heat of want But I…

This is a tricky question but a necessary one. Most of the systems we operate under are based on the premise that there is someone in charge — and that the someone in charge must be obeyed, treated with respect, and protected in their authority. I have been working to…