Atheist in a Foxhole

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A foxhole: a pit dug usually hastily for individual cover from enemy fire

Growing up in evangelical Christianity, I knew one thing: the name of Jesus was the only power I possessed. I clung to it like my life depended on it, and often, I felt it did. I really struggled with fear of the dark when I was little. My mom told me it was because I had a “discerning spirit,” which meant that I was sensitive to the spirit world, both…